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Saturday, March 16, 2019

Share your love with me, Mother
Hell will freeze, before your shutter
laugh can hurt more than a cutter.
Rough teeth smile, yours are used better
Pry open my heart, chew me without bitter


One rape is enough, to take all you want
Body never been touched,souls are the hunt
Jet black, her venom running up my front
Eager to violate, A knife weakly blunt
Caress young cheek, my sister'll grunt
The ideal daughter, Angel of death and shunt
Small sisters play, mine kills and hunt


Sharp objects cut, sick people violates

Review on one of the darkest books I have ever read| Sharp objects by Gillian Flynn


A picture of two ladies with a young girl



Hello everyone. How is it going? I hope you all doing great and ready for this review, cause this one is amazing! 
If you think that Gone girl is dark, you are wrong. This book is jet black. It's one of the creepiest, greatest, mouth- gaping ( if that's even an adjective😂) books I have ever read!


Com'on. Let's dig in cause I am gonna give you 


6 reasons why you MUST read Sharp Objects.






You begin to crave it, love it, do it and enjoy it. You violate the same way you were violated.




1) BEWARE OF THE MENTAL VIOLATION :


If you gonna learn a thing or two from that book, then that thing is to start seeing things differently. Life ain't black and white, there are too many shades of grey (Actually in this book there are too many shades of black). Life is filled with violence. It doesn’t have to be rape, or assault or even a murder. Violence can be done without a single touch.
It might break you from inside. Make you a less human creature. You begin to crave it, love it, do it and enjoy it.
You violate the same way you were violated.

Camille, her mother (Adora) and her little sister aren't just a normal family. They are fu*ked up, the first few pages in the book make you irritated, like who's the bad person. Who is the villain?  But through out pages, you start to see how an act of violence can affect others even unintentionally.


2) IT'S NOT JUST A CRIME NOVEL:


It's not. Not by a long shot. Even if the events are exciting and it is quite fast-paced actually. The focus here is on the mental aspect.

Gillian here wanted to show us a new species. A humanoid one where good and bad are extremely mixed. She wanted to blow up the bubble wrapped around us. Where good is pink and bad is black. We are humans we are chess board filled with white and black squares. Sometimes they are equal. Sometimes they are not.


3) TEEN PROBLEMS :


But dignity isn't quite available anymore. Those who have none, set fire to the rain, let boiling water kills those around them and then they feed on our screams of agony.


Self-cut. I am sure most of you have already heard about it, recently it's been so viral,  but it's one thing to be a media buzz and it's another thing to face that demon. Camille was a cutter, her body was her masterpiece. When I read that book, I felt her suffer, need for intimacy and lose of human contact. She needed to feel alive and the cuts made her feel so.

Once I was standing on a cold corner in Chicago waiting for the light to change when a blind man came clicking up. What are the cross streets here, he asked, and when I didn’t reply he turned toward me and said, Is anybody there?I’m here, I said, and it felt shockingly comforting those words. When I’m panicked, I say them aloud to myself. I’m here. I don’t usually feel that I am.
P 152. Paragraph 1



At first, you don't know what the hell with Camille, what's her problem. Is it emotional deprivation or depression or self-harm or all of the above. But what you should know that this book would give you a dose of power like no other. 

This book is gonna destroy you, so you can build yourself better, more powerful. It's gonna give you a second skin. Harsher. Thicker.






4) PARENTAL GUIDE :


I always feel bad for the girl that I was, she never told me she loved me and I never assumed she did 
P. 154. Paragraph 2

If you a parent, a future mother or even a distant aunt. That book gonna give you a strong lesson. 

MERCY AND RESPONSIBILITY. 

I believe that mercy is the weakest form of love, the least you can do. If you can't be responsible and merciful then you can't be human, not a mother at the least.



Camille needed motherly caring, kindness and love, yet her mother is a b**** who never took responsibility for granted.





5) EMPOWER YOUR SELF AGAINST SICK PEOPLE :


They didn't take anything from you. They took you and replaced you with a high-class monster



When I had been sad, I hurt myself... Amma hurt others 
P.241 last line.

Even trash has levels, some sick people have small portion of dignity, they only hurt themselves, pry open their souls and catch them on fire. 
But dignity isn't quite available anymore. Those who have none, set fire to the rain, let boiling water kill those around them and then they feed on our screams of agony.

You know what's really bad about violence, that you have been violated to the level that you don't really know if your own free will was taken from you or you wanted that violence.
You become familiar with it until it becomes in your bones, mixed up with your blood.
They didn't take anything from you. They took you and replaced you with a high-class monster

Sharp objects focus on that kind of violence, it shows you how it starts, why it propagates and what happens in the end. The book might look disturbing but in a beneficial way.

It isn't just a dark novel or a dangerous one. It's a mystery book. 
It gives you a glimpse of a new aspect of life. An aspect isn't yet good or bad. It's like a colour you see for the first time, a new shade of 3 of the darkest shades.


6) LEARN TO CONTROL. NOT BE CONTROLLED.



" Sometimes when you let people do things to you, you are really doing it to them "

This is a straight quote from the book, it might freak the life out of you, but it's true. 
When you let someone controls you, you control him too by being controlled. By giving them the satisfaction of being in control, yet they are the ones controlled by their nasty need for power.
When people see you less, let them. That's only gonna weaken them, lose their guard around you and become lesser. The least.








So, you feel interested in the book, gonna read it? Yes. No. It's ok, cause it was never about a book, paper or words. It's all about being adventurous, fearless and proud. Its all about the experiences we get from books. 

Books are Journeys. As well as my reviews. I don't review the characters, the flow, the writing style or the script. 
I review me after reading the book.
Keep reading, you are worth it, books are worth it.






Friday, February 22, 2019

Took the breath out of my reach.
Hungry eyes, fire in each.
Escape the demon, never shall breach.


Dark goblets of purple stare.
Aroma of love maddens and dare.
Ready to kill, yet love and care.
Kill the enemy with hands, bare.
Every look of his eyes lost me some air.
Swept away. without reason or fair. 
Take me away, be my fairytale. 


Stars are born to shine and bright.
Though he is dark, I loved him alright.
dark star brightens my night.
Raven star, my darkest sight. 


We were all dark stars but luckily, he was the darkest




Free hand sketch by Ali Khaled 




Review on " The darkest star " by Jennifer l armentrout.




Hello book people. Hope you are doing great and reading like tons and tons of books. this review isn't like any other since this book isn't any book. This one is a spin-off to the first book I have ever read in my life. Just imagine reading a spin-off of your favourite characters after years of first reading the book.  


So, to break the ice for you, my book review today is on " The Darkest Star " by Jennifer l Armentrout.  

Just grab a seat, a cup of coffee would be great ;) as for whether you read the series or never heard about it or even hate reading (SHAME ON YOU!!)  I am sure you gonna love this blog post.






Luc watched me. “Most people are capable of doing horrible things or looking away from them while they’re doing amazing things. People aren’t one-dimensional.”                                                                                                                                                                                 

For me, people are either bad, worse or worst. Don't get me wrong, that's not a bad thing. The good in you isn't measured by being good yourself, but by how worse you could have been, yet you are not. We are who we are and that isn't all about goodness and gracious. It's all about second chances.







  • His star isn't bright but I loved him anyway. I loved the dark since he was one. I loved the darkest star.



Some call it magic, others call it stupidity. I think it's both. Love is both magical and stupid, It's magical to be stupidly in love and its stupid to think that love isn't magical. It clouds your eyes, brainwashes your brain. Logic flies out of the window. Guess science failed to explain it. How can we love someone so bad? Change our mood in a second just because he is at a walking distance. Your eyes never failed to stare at him. How? 
 I really don't know but in this book, you gonna see the Magic of love.









  • Even in your darkest, someone sees you as their light. 



It's incredible how we can be manipulated. Ok, so again don't get me wrong. But, it's kind of a manipulation. All the opinions, ideas and thoughts that you have been building up all your life. Those that make up your personality. Your existence. YOU. They just evaporate. You just love everything in him. All the darkness you have been escaping, become a new obsession. You seek it and love it.
When you love, you see darkness...light. 

When you are in love with someone, You are happily-manipulated. Just make sure they are worthy of your obsession.



So, you feel interested in the book, gonna read it? Yes. No. It's ok, cause it was never about a book, paper or words. It's all about being adventurous, fearless and proud. Its all about the experiences we get from books. 

Books are Journeys. As well as my reviews. I don't review the characters, the flow, the writing style or the script. 
I review me after reading the book.
Keep reading, you are worth it, books are worth it.




Sunday, February 10, 2019

Wonder


Wear my helmet, put it on.
Others can't see me, now. Deformed. Moron.
Never did them bad, yet good they never done.
Daring me to stop, reaching for my sun.
Endanger my dreams,  hope let me won.
Right through the heart, kindness is my gun.


Choose kind...Be A Wonder.



A boy holding a helmet while smiling
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Hello again everyone, hope you are doing great and welcome to my new book review. Books are Journeys and with every book I read, I live a new one with its ups and downs. Great moments and desperate ugly cries.

Today's Journey is " Wonder " by R.J Palacio

Let's dig in!


  • " When given the choice between being right and being kind, choose kind " 
One of the most common phrases in the book and the movie as well. Actually, if you wanna summarise the book, those words are more than enough. 
But when I read it, I had a question.
What if we choose not. Not being smart nor kind. Will that makes me a bad person for not choosing to be kind?


 Being kind is all about emotions while being right is all about reality. Human emotions are unpredictable and uncontrollable. What feels kind now might be full of evil tomorrow.
I would have chosen " being right " If only I was. But I am not and I bet you two aren't. Nobody's right we all are flawed. 

" Choose kind, but sometimes you must choose non. "



  • " Your deeds are your monuments " 
It means what you leave after your death is what you gonna be remembered for. Nobody is gonna remember you for being beautiful, or smart or rich. No one is gonna remember your grades or IQ or even your endless wardrobe. People are gonna remember you for the good you did in your life. The help you gave, the kindness you shared and the people you stood up for.

" The only things that really remains of you after your death, are those you chose to share in your life."



  • Olivia's feeling.
Olivia is Auggie's older sister and in my opinion, she deserves a book for her own. She represents a condition we all have been through,  you know that feeling when something irritates you. Yet, you can't describe it. You can't put it into words. 

Well, that's what happened with Oliva.  She had to do almost everything by herself. She couldn't say anything, she couldn't complain. Her brother's medical status was Critical at the same time she had an exam or need help in homework. She had to choose between her own welfare and her brother's suffering. 


" Some sacrifices aren't shown, some are unmentioned. Forgotten. "



  • " I hate it! I hate it! I hate it! " He was shrinking at the top of his lungs.

That was the first line on page 113 in Olivia's POV. I don't know why it stopped me. It seemed normal. Until I read the next line. 
" He was hurt...He was mad. " 
Those words said it all. All our bad decisions, raised voices, rude words and our worse actions. The darkness lies inside us was a result of untreated wounds. A result of us being hurt in the first place.

Am I overating things? Maybe yes.
Am I wrong? Hell, no.
Does being hurt enough alibi for us? No, but at least now we know what made us take those decisions in the first place.


A girl whispering to a boy wearing an astronaut's helmet
GIF via Tumblr


  • " The universe wasn't good to Auggie Pullman. What did the little kid ever do to deserve his sentence? "
Justin's POV.

I am sure we said that at least one time, Just replace Auggie's name with yours or your deceased father, maybe your unemployed brother, or your dead husband.

Different scenarios but the same mistake. We still see ourselves as victims. Even if something bad happens we still have the choice to make good things. We can control our lives, not vice versa.

Auggie who had a really rough childhood never gave up. He has a great personality, he is funny and smart. 

" Stop looking for the sad endings, there are plenty of them. Start making good ones. You can, Auggie did. "



  • " Extraordinary, but no one there to see. "
Miranda's POV.
we are unique in our own way, without even trying. we are born special. We are...Until someone breaks our self-confidence, either by hurt or by ignorance. And so on. We become extraordinary, but no one there to see.



  • " There are always gonna be Jerks in the world, Auggie "
Wonder is a kind book. It's filled with kindness and hope. But is it for real? 
Is this world filled with good people as well? How many are they? Are they more than the bad ones?

Does the evil in this world deserve one more chance? If you forget and forgive, would that makes you a better person or a fool? 
Who deserves your forgiveness.



  • " Just follow the day and reach for the sun "
Last but not least, if there a way to summarise wonder,  it won't be any way better than this sentence. Just be patient, be strong and follow your dreams.




Thank you for reading my review, that was a brief overview of all the thoughts I got during and after reading wonder.
Wonder gave me hope. It taught me to be a better me. It taught me to be kinder than necessary. It is, indeed, the cutest book I have ever read.


R.J Palacio
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Wednesday, January 30, 2019



Before I fall novel passed on a table on its cover a girl with blue icecape


Brought me to death, I don't deserve to die.
Even if my worth, wasn't that good or high.
Forever, I thought I will never say Goodbye.
Opal in heart, diamonds all over my thigh.
Reality broke me up, I won't reach the sky.
Edge of life I suspended, unable to fly.


I am dead again, 1,2 3...7 times.

Feathered wings can't fly without a guide.
Answers are, In all the things I lied
Let me wipe all the darkness I hide
Let me, it's never too late, I already died.


Hello everyone, Here we go with a new book review and a new poem. As you know my reviews are divided into two halves. The first is a poem and the second half is my personal thoughts about the book in points.

So, Let's rock it!!


  •  Do you deserve to die?

That depends on whether death is a curse or an act of mercy. Even if you crave death, you don't deserve it. Nobody deserves it, it's not a punishment or a prize. It's a Solid thing. A dull shadow. The lamest grey ever in a pallet. The kind of colour you never used but they still make it anyway.

Girl waking up has a yellow piece of paper in her hand
Copyrights reserved to Before I Fall movie.


  • You know nothing!
As much as you know about someone, you will never come to the end of it. Still, there will be something unknown. It's funny how big of a fool Samantha made of herself. She made up a lie and believed it. Her best friend, the girl she nearly spent her whole life with, becomes a stranger and vice versa.

 " How is that possible, to change so much and not be able to change anything at all. "


Man, This life is weird "

  • Do you believe in fate?
That one step led to the other. In this book, you gonna see him, and he is a bastard. A lucky bastard that always wins. Whatever you do, wherever you escape. He is gonna get you.
Samantha ( The main character) tried to escape. She tried to break the cycle of time. She wanted the upper hand.
Can she do it?
I guess you should read the book to figure it out.

  • Your parents are supposed to keep you safe. 
They were supposed to be, when everyone left, they should have been the ones who stayed. Samantha's parents weren't bad or mean or ignorant. They just love their daughter too much. Too much to believe that blast of lies she always carries.



  • You can't go home again. 
Cause places don't change, people do. Home isn't a place. It isn't a physical thing. You can't touch home, you can only feel it in your bones. Samantha felt it in her friends. So, when everything happened. Things started to change. 
" She couldn't go home again "


Four girls laughing and holding paper cups
Copyrights reserved to Before I Fall movie


  • Dying is the loneliest thing you can do. 
Nobody is gonna die with you. You gonna experience it all alone. Samantha learnt that the hard way. She spent all her life avoiding people except her friends. 
Guess her friends couldn't help her after all.


  • Normalcy is priceless. 
Only to those who need it the most. Those who can't afford it. The poor, The weak, The deceased. But Sam wasn't any, on the contrary, She was perfect as a porcelain doll.
Before it fells on the ground, now Sam is in pieces and Normalcy is way priceless than she would ever think.



So many things become beautiful when you really look."




Some see the world a big happy place, some don't and that's why everyone hates each other.
So, my dear readers that were my thoughts during and after reading " Before I fall " by Lauren Oliver, you can find the author here.

It made me think.
It made me cry.
It made me happy.

Two girls hugging, one is closing her eyes and the other is smiling
Copyrights reserved to Before I Fall movie

If you would relive one day over and over, which one would you choose?

Sunday, January 13, 2019


A novel called " Warcross " placed on a table.




War is coming, watch your step.
A Hunter is waiting for your final slip.
Ready to take over, her gun at the hip.

Crossing the worlds, like a piece of cake.
Rows of codes, she wrote without a shake.
Or play a game, A hacker only can fake.
Sorry, Dear. Some rules we can't break. 
Some pawns never meant for a move to take.

                           Hunter
                           Hacker
                           Player
                           Pawn
                              

Hello, everyone. Warcross was my first book in 2019. Wish me luck I want to finish 90 books this year and I guess I am doing ok so far. ( update: I wrote this review in the middle of my finals😓😓)


Review on " warcross " book one of warcross series by Marie Lu. 


            

  • Girl power is all over the book. Not only in the physical form but also mentally and emotionally. It's so rare to see a book where the heroine won't fall to her knees whenever she sees the one she loves, which bring me to the part I love the most. 

warcross is a fictional book in a non-fiction way
  • The main character " Emika Chen " was a bounty hunter, hacker and a warcross player but also you could see her in yourself or in a friend or a relative. When she falls in love, she loves with her brain before her heart. She loves with her eyes wide open. This love story is a real one and It's not all sugar candy and ponies.

A girl with colourful hair playing with a cube
pic from Pinterest


Love can be an excellent motive. Just be sure to use it wisely 
  • When you love someone you want to give him the whole world. And that what exactly happened with Emika. That gorgeous hacker fell in love with the one she's been hacking and she would have done anything for him..anything but evil. But will Emika stand still in front of Hideo's gaze and confront him? Or will she weaken and fell in love unconditionally?

How much would you give for an imaginary illusion? And how fast would you give it up if you knew it's filled with devious plans?
  • Warcross is a virtual reality Game, took place in a world of high technology and intelligence, but sometimes illusions are so realistic that you start to doubt your reality. Warcross, which started only as a game became a lifestyle. 

How far would you go to end evil?
  • If you have the means to end evil, would you do it? Sure! If those means includes being evil as well but not as much as you are going to stop, Does that make you a better person? Less bad? the same? Or even worse? Can you play God? Well, that's one hell of a paradox.

You Can't Play God 
  • Can you? Well, Hideo ( book hero) though he could. He wanted to play a game only God can master. A game of recompense and punishment. But think about it for a minute. If you can only make people do the right thing, how far would you go before everything goes dark?
          And What's your version of right? 


Do you agree with me? No? Yes?
Anyway, I think you should read Warcross by MarieLu

Thanks for reading. I know some of you might not understand my reviews or even the writing style. My book reviews are a collection of thoughts I get through the book. I try to write them down and organise them in a way that might interest some to actually read the book. It's not your typical book review, I know😎 



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Friday, December 28, 2018


A man and a woman smiling



How much would you go for the hope of true love | A review on " The choice " by Nicolas Sparks  



Truth is told once in a while.
How far can you go for true love, not a trial?
Every option is hard, but shall you make a pile

Can destroy of choices not save.
Happiness is for those who feel brave.
Or take a hard choice with no shelter or cave.
It breaks souls but mine are free to share.
Choices are taken in moments of despair.
Every blink of an eye I choose her.

Even if she doesn't want to be chosen.
Even if she's on a hospital bed, broken.
I choose a memory. A vow..never been spoken.



A man sitting in front of a sick woman on a hospital bed


Merry Christmas, everyone!
Yep, that's me. A bookaholic senior dentist who just finished " The Choice "  and wanted to write something about it. So, let's begin.



  • Our choices aren't ours.

Nope, not yours. You try to tell yourself so. That you made it with your own free will. But, you didn't. The choices you made is based on time, circumstances, experience, failures and sadly, Fear. Even if we chose the people we love. A friend to spend time with, a best friend or a lover. That choice is based upon emotion. An emotion that was raised within you in that person's presence. But!


Can you control your emotions?! Cause if you can, then you can control your choices.

" If Gabby never felt attracted to Travis, if that split second never happened, would she choose Travis, even if logic says No? " 


  • The choices we make. 
The good of them and the bad, aren't about the concept itself of choosing, it's all about who you choose or who you make a choice for or who you will be after making that choice?


  • How much would you go for the hope of true love?

"I would go to the end of the world".
Yeah! I bet that was your first thought. 

"Nowhere, there's nothing called true love"
Aaaaannnd, That was your second one.


We live in a mixed world, between those who believe in love and bubbles of joy ( Facebook people) and those who went through an unsuccessful love experience and think life can't give him/her any more good. 
And there's you. Waiting for love without knowing if it might actually come or not. You just have a weird feeling, that maybe one day you gonna be a Facebook guy or a Facebook girl.


So, my dear reader. How much you would go for true love. If you really wanna know. I guess you should read the choice by Nicolas Sparks 


A romance novel with thrilling points and turns that makes it perfect.


" The best choice  is to never let go of what you believe "


Thank you so much for reading my review, I hope you like it. I know my reviews are a little bit different, but books aren't just a bunch of papers for me. They are my life and with every book I read. 
A new life begins!




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