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Monday, September 10, 2018

The woman in cabin 10

September 10, 2018 A little poetic touch , book review 14 Comments
1, 2, 3 breath in
Can you see her now? Did you see her, then?
4,5,6 breath out.
You have to believe me. She isn't saved nor sound.
Repeat it once, twice, three and four times.
She's gone away, with no Goodbyes.



I need your help. I need you to see.
Maybe you are next, maybe me.
The water is corrupted, the water is stained
With a Floyd t-shirt, a pinky shade.



My brain was a selfish, lying bastard.
He played me up, A game he mastered.
He made me believe what's not true.
A woman in a cabin, you see her, don't you?



Your eyes and heart are two different things 
I feel her death, I need no lens.
Won't stop digging, crossing every line.
The woman in the cabin next to mine.
The woman in cabin 10.


The woman in cabin 10 a debut thriller novel by Ruth ware.



I always write my reviews as poems. I love the way the words get sneaky, make you think the book is something while it's a totally different thing.


With every book, I read. I become a different person with new aims and possibilities.


This is not a book review...this is me after reading " the woman in cabin 10 "


  • Our brains are indeed bastards, an amazingly powerful and smart one. They don't care about the truth or what's really there. They just want to get it over with.

It's all about connections. From the first blink of an eye to its last one. All the brain does is connecting, connecting all pieces of information to make a chain of events, opinions, conclusions and personalities. These connections are us in every way possible.



An Apple.


The word apple you just read has no taste, no sound, no shape, no colour and no painful nor blissful experiences. So, why did you see the colour red or green or yellow when you read it? It's just a word. Why those specific colours only? Why did you feel abrupt sadness and anger?



 It has nothing to do with a typed word, right? 



 No, the word apple is connected to a pic you saw before. A pic of a red apple lies in your memory, waiting for the perfect trigger to resurface. It also connected to the last time you ate it which was like 7 days ago. The same day you dropped out or broke up with your partner. 



All of these are considered separate pieces of information until the perfect trigger.

But that's not the sneaky part.....



your brain wants to create these connections that sometimes it just mess up.
 Like a puzzle, your brain connects every little piece with each other according to its shape and colour. Sometimes it connects the pieces according to shape only, forming a totally different picture.


But that's also not the sneaky part.


The sneaky part is your brain will figure out a way to make it believable.

It makes you believe that the different pic is the, in fact, the original one. The mismatched pieces are totally matching and perfectly forming a masterpiece.

And you believe it.

Like, Who can doubt his own brain?


 who we are actually to say otherwise. To doubt our own brains. In the end, our brain. Our conscious is who we are. If we start to doubt it. Then we start to doubt our own existence. And if we do so, then we gonna doubt EVERYTHING.


So how can we get out of this loop?



I know I sound overrated. You are right. I am a crazy book geek. I know you are scared, but tell me. Have you ever been so sure of something and discovered that you were wrong about it?


Have you ever broken up with someone, ended a marriage, a friendship for the wrong reasons that once were so right?


Have you ever asked yourself why you always suck at your own problems while acting like a damn social worker with other's problems?


It's all about the way you see the events. The way your brain connects the dots.

At least that's what happened to LO. That's what I started to believe after reading the woman in cabin 10.

Thanks,


All pics via unsplash.
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Thursday, September 6, 2018

It's kind of a funny story

September 06, 2018 book review , 16 Comments

When I bought this book it wasn't intentional, just saw it's movie trailer and found it online at an acceptable price so, why not? It's about depression and suicide and I loved those categories. I love when books talk and dig into emotional issues. I got the book and Guess what? ??



I discovered that the author of the book Ned Vizzini committed suicide back in 2013
He had severe depression.
It's like he screamed his agony through the book. I haven't read it yet. But I think it's not just a book. It's the thoughts, feelings and pain of a man tried so hard to win his war but failed.
Maybe this book will make a difference. Maybe people will stop committing suicide. Maybe not. But by reading this book you are helping Ned and all those who quit and Giving hope for those who still fight against depression.

WE GONNA KILL THIS MONSTER
You fought hard. You deserve life but life didn't deserve you. RIP, Ned Vizzini



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Saturday, September 1, 2018

The Subtle art of not giving a fuck

September 01, 2018 A little poetic touch , book review 25 Comments

Mom!, look A panda at the door
Knocking hard, angry for sure.
She looks cute and lovely as well.
Her eyes are pearls of disappointment as hell.

"I thought you would be smarter," the panda said.
How could you try, how could you pretend?
You change and change and changing again.
Escaping the truth, failing all the same.


Trying to forget the pain and fear.
Missing the lesson, watching unclear
Cause pain makes us humans and it
Makes us stronger, he's your only friend.



Walking like a hero, Shoulders high.
Not giving a fuck or even try.
Thinking life is like your poor girlfriend.
Ignore her all you want, she waits for you until the end.


But life isn't as dumb or as easy
Slap you hard for being sneaky
Or thinking once that not giving a fuck
Is the easiest way for quick luck.
Without the pain. you ain't much happy.
Cause pain and happiness are BFF, buddy

This life isn't a show or a movie part.
You need to be an artist cause living is an art.
The subtle art of not giving a fuck.





And that was my review on the subtle art of not giving a fuck.
It's pretty easy to say that this book is great or fabulous or amazing.
This book wasn't just a book..it was like a movie. I can hear the author's voice whispering. I can see myself living his life and doing his mistakes. 

This is not a good motivational book. This is a lifetime lesson 
This is Mark answering my questions without even knowing who I am.


I don't believe in amazing books. I believe in the amazing impacts of a good book.

  • You spend your whole life trying to change but the truth is changing isn't gonna fix your problems, it's gonna make it worse. Think of it for a minute. We always try to change for the better. Be more updated and better versions of our own selves. But who told you exactly that the updated version of yourself is better. I truly believe that every change I have become is a fake one. The truth is..... Guess what? ??  Acceptance.  Because we will change from the inside..from the root. We should change the concept that says " being better is to change into the better"  to " being better is to accept, cope and act as ourselves to feel better in our own skin"

  • Everyone has his one values...his own means...his own truth...and his own opinions... it's like a fingerprint no one is alike...so don't try to prove anything.


  • Success is just a word with no meaning or so many meanings that nobody truly knows what is a success any more.

  • Certainty is a myth..even your own eyes can deceive you.



  • You think you will be happy if you avoid pain and problems but you couldn't be any more wrong..you will only get happy after you feel the pain, so before wailing for not being happy, ask your self...How much pain can you endure?



  • I believe that we spend our whole lives trying to achieve our dreams that are based on certain values, it has nothing to do with right or wrong but the way you see those values. You think that you are the one in control that you choose those values. But what you don't know that humans are easily affected creatures and sometimes our values too.



  • The action isn't the effect of motivation, it's also the cause of it. We live in a connected world. Societies are so tightened in a narrow Web. We make an action that affects those around us. It's either induce or inhibit us emotionally,  this emotion is called a motivation. Sometimes we feel less motivated, other times more..so our actions are the cause and result. It was always that way. Motivations Cant control you but actions can.




  • Love is cocaine. We want so bad to be loved. The sole and only purpose of somebody's life. So when it happens. We can't get over the high. We just use it more and more...more love, more cocaine. It's an emotional addiction, sadly no one can love you more than you. Read romantic books all you want...watch millions of romance, but no one can give you love and care more than yourself. And that's the ugly miserable truth. With time the interest lessens a little bit, he doesn't have to a bad guy or a jerk. ( I am not saying he isn't, tho😂😂) but sometimes we want something that isn't available. It's like buying 10 kilos of thin air. That's when the withdrawal symptoms begin. And that's why breakups hurt so much.




  • Freedom's true meaning. I always thought that freedom is like the absolute capability to do whatever you want. The unlimited number of options. But with the unlimited options come the burden of choosing. That's the problem of freedom. Freedom is choosing commitment willingly after taking the whole world on a silver plate.
  • Giving a fuck is like immortality. By giving a fuck about something, you spend time, energy and ideas on it. That thing becomes your legacy, your influence. So death doesn't become the boggy man anymore. Cause even if you died...you are not forgotten. Your ideas, energy and influence are very much alive. You are immortal.



This is not a professional review of the book. This is not quoting either, somethings you may relate it to the book, some things have nothing to do with it. This is me after reading the subtle art of not giving a fuck.



I believe that our sole existence is just a reflection of the environment around us So, that blog post, article whatever you want to name it. Is the reflection of the book on me.





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Wednesday, August 22, 2018

Review on beautiful oblivion

August 22, 2018 A little poetic touch , book review 8 Comments

Sun is all gold and grace
Shining high with no shades
Obvious to all, but those who care
Can feel the warmth, not the despair.

Envy Envy is all I got
Cause it's shiny and I am not.
A big shiny sun is all I wanna be 
But secrets surround, suffocating me

He's asking me out, he's kissing me.
I wanna escape, I  wanna flee
I ain't your sun, I am just a star
Lying away, damn too far.

If dumbness a kingdom, he's the king.
He never sees how's gonna end.
That's not important, he says


You are my sun, even if you are
A timeless faraway star.
I want no realities, I want a dream.
A beautiful oblivion, just like a cream.



It's supposed to be easy. To choose between right and wrong. Good and bad. Light and dark.


It's supposed to..... But that's only in theories. Cause life is no cake, you can't choose between chocolate and vanilla.life is a sugar powder, you can't know it's sweetness until you taste salt in your tea.

It's never easy to forget or leave the guilt behind you.

But not impossible, it only needs magic or love.

I hope you like this weird review on Beautiful Oblivion by Jamie McGuire.

So this book discussed a lot of society issues and emotional (most important)as well in a really cool, romantic and easy read.

The plot was really flowable and the ending was a complete surprise

Liked how the author wrote the description in a way that gives you a completely opposite idea about what the book really take about.

Thank you, Jamie for this book.




Thank you for reading this. I hope my review is quite interesting. I know this is not your typical review post but I am not a typical blogger either.




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Saturday, August 18, 2018

Review on In the after light (The darkest minds book 3)

August 18, 2018 A little poetic touch , book review 9 Comments
Last but not least.
Running hard to the east.
Hand in hand, show the beast.
What we can do the least.

Fists high through the night.
No other way but to fight.
Stealing, what was once our right.
Catching, the last gleaming light.


Ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen
Years of pain for just a teen.
Who knew nothing but hurt.
Or to shake the feeling of guilt.

Never break glass if you fear.
What small shreds could tear.
As the small never stays.
Small forever anyways.

But the choice is always there.
For you to see, what's really fair.
Evil will always be a choice.
Not red nor blue nor even orange.


Thank you all for reading this poem. It was my review on In the after light (Book 3 of the Darkest Minds series)



And of course as usual, at the end of every series, this feeling hits me. 
I don't know if it is lost or sadness or despair 

Maybe it is the word "The End" 
But, yes. It was the end of the darkest mind book 3 and the end of Ruby's story. But if I learned a thing from every book I read, this book taught me a lifetime lesson.





  1. Evil isn't defined by opportunities or abilities or powers, evil is defined by the will and decisions of its carrier.                    
  2. Evil is a choice.                                                                                                
  3. Maybe we are not that bad, maybe we are just damaged.                                               
  4. There's no happy ever after but there are those few happy moments in life we could take away and forget.                             
  5. The motive is a double-edged weapon. Sometimes, it makes us destroy the world for the ones we love but other times, it makes us destroy the ones we love to control the world.

It was and always be a choice.



Thank you for reading this. I hope my review is quite interesting. I know this is not your typical review post but I am not a typical blogger either.

That was the end of the darkest minds series 
Thank you, Alexandra Bracken, for this journey.






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Wednesday, August 8, 2018

Magic

August 08, 2018 Creative writing , Screaming out loud 10 Comments
It all started with just a tap on an icon. 

Twitter was and still my favourite app of all time. Checking here, scrolling there. It doesn't matter just wasting my precious time.


Until I found this photo. U know, no big deal!
But I think that you don't have to spend hours to make a change. Sometimes it's all about a second, a coincidence, an opportunity... A picture


Sometimes we fall in love with ideas, not people.

I believe that what happenes to a lot of people.

You love the idea of being loved.
Of being cherished.
Of being taken cared of.


The idea of being the centre of somebody's life.
The Sole and the only purpose to someone.


You love the idea, then you love the one who's got the idea, then you love his presence cause every time you see the gleam in his eyes, you remember that you are worth it.

You hate his absence, Cause you hate not hearing his words or seeing the love in his eyes.
You love the lips that tell you " I love you"
The eyes that can't leave your sight.
The shoulders that hug you.
The voice.

Step by step you start to love the whole person without even knowing you do.

But

What if this person never loved you in the first place?
Would you still love him?
What if it was just a consequence? Does it make it love?


The sole purpose of love is happiness.
But Does happiness define love?

Is every time you feel happy with someone, it means you love him?

I believe that human feelings are like a rainbow. Full of colours. Some colours are more alike than others, that people mix it up or confuse.

But that leaves us with the most important question of all 

What is love?
Which colour?
How?
Why? 
When?

I dont know.
Maybe for now or maybe will never do.
Maybe it isn't meant to be known.


Maybe it's magic💖



This is a freestyle writing, I really wish you got what I wanna say.

I just write what I feel.

Thanks for reading this.





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Monday, August 6, 2018

Never fade book review

August 06, 2018 A little poetic touch , book review 11 Comments
Run Run Run Run
Don't stop, it's already begun.
Saving, those who never saw the sun.
Thinking, they have already won.
Saving and cleaning, everybody's mess
Wishing, it will make it less.
Saying, we got nothing but to fight.
Wishing, it's gonna be alright.


Fight who, where, when and why.
Everybody's screaming, Nobody is shy.
Saving a lot, saying so few 
Hiding my pain, it ain't new.
Trying to be the perfect child.
Nobody is perfect, I am only blind.

Sadness, anger, guilt and fear.
Mixing all together, making it clear.
I am gonna never save them all
Swimming for months, never reaching the shore.


But I once was and forever will be.
The friend, the lover and the one who believes.
For a better future and for a cure for sure.
For me, you and those who endure


I really hope you liked my poem. This is my own review on Never Fade.
The Darkest minds 2 by Alexandra Bracken. 

This book was different. It was filled with mixed emotions, good and bad. Love and hate. But the most prominent one is hope and giving up.

And that's what makes this book really one of a kind. 
How can you feel two opposite feelings at the same time? 
How can you figure out when to continue and when to give up?
How can you choose, when all your choices end the same? 
Is it worth it?

Is there really a cure??

That's what we will find in the third and last book in the trilogy " In the after light" 


I really hope you like my weird and extraordinary review. But that's the way I am, though.





This poem really explains a lot about a book. But I don't want to give it all away by a typical professional review. It's a great book by the way. I loved every second of it.


 I really hope you like This review. I know this not your typical review posts. I know There are way better reviews. But I don't do this for professionals. I try to be different. I try to be a freestyle writer. Shake some things up. Thanks, For your support and I, would be very Happy to hear your opinions.


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